It went like this: Me, “I don’t want to have just 2. My brother and I were always close, then he left for the Navy. Then he got married. And I never got to talk with him the same”. Hubster, ” Well I don’t want 3. I am a middle child, and I don’t want that for ours”. So, four was our number. It made sense.
Then I said, “I want them all close in age so they can be friends.” And, the hubster was scared. I told him, it was ok to be scared. And when he couldn’t handle it, I would. Because I knew in my heart that one of the best gifts that we could give them would be each other.
They came perfectly for us, girl-boy-girl-boy. They each made their own bond with each other separately and together. Watching them laugh, play, and grow has been and always will be the greatest privilege of my life. And I know I’ll be blessed to continue watching their bond for the rest of my life.
I have been happily ignoring facts for months. There was no use looking at the inevitable prematurely. Tonight the facts slapped me in the face and made my eyes water. Sometimes it is like that, you hold so much emotion, then it leaks down your face.
I am so proud of all my kiddos! Tonight one of my kiddos signed with the Marines. We knew this was what he wanted. He has to pass the tests, but his shoulder healed pretty well! He should have no problems. He lovingly waited to officially sign until after his sister’s wedding and after our Vermont trip. ❤
According to the initial plan, he’ll leave next month for bootcamp. Another kiddo will leave next month to start her married life with her hubby. Two kiddos, moving states away, within a couple of weeks of each other. I knew this was happening. I just was happy in my denial bubble. I’m going back in to my denial bubble ASAP! I don’t need these feelings right now! They can wait until next month!
Tonight I am thankful for my amazing kiddos! ❤ No matter how much my eyes leak or I stay in denial about next month; I am happy for my kiddos as they follow their hearts and dreams! I will always be their biggest fan, most loyal supporter, and giver of unconditional love. I will forever thank God for giving me these kiddos. I know God loves them more than me, but I can’t really comprehend that fully. ❤
Momma's Silver Lining 