I’d Like To

You know sometimes when you are talking or typing, communicating, with people, and words just keep coming out when they should probably stop? That would be me today. My intentions were to make things better. Instead I’m pretty sure I made things worse.

This verbal diarrhea is irritating. I usually have a better handle on this. I know, some people may role their eyes at that statement, because I’m a fairly open person, too open, or so I’ve been told. But I do usually utilize some control – scary huh? 😉

I would like to blame today on the overwhelming more positive physical state that I was in earlier today, followed by the larger crash when I overdid things because I was so happy to have been doing better at the start of today.
I would like to blame today on the fever that I currently have, that is hopefully going to be gone in the morning, because I will be seriously annoyed if it is not!
I would like to blame today on the odd level of hangr-i-ness (angry, hungry) that just exists within me since I haven’t been able to eat most foods of sustenance since Thanksgiving. (But, hey, I’ve lost a few pounds!)
I would like to blame today on the crappy sleep that I got last night because apparently asleep-me felt the need to smash the healing scars of her face in to the mattress until the pain woke me up repeatedly.
I would like to blame today on a lot of things. Unfortunately, the problem is me. Maybe I’ll start singing, “It’s me, Hi, I’m the problem, it’s me.” Yup, I should have just came back home and taken a nap on the couch and rested. I knew I wasn’t operating at 100%.

*sigh*

Tonight I am thankful that tomorrow is a new day. I will talk less tomorrow. I think I will run things thru my head at least three times before I say them. Or maybe tomorrow I will just do the things that need to be done, make a few dad jokes, and rest more. There are some Christmas movies that I haven’t watched yet. In fact, I ordered the dvd of Eloise at Christmastime from Amazon for probably the 5th time and I think it should be here tomorrow!