I’ve got my list of things I need to do before we leave. Today we crossed a few things off the list. I’m tired.
This would seem less daunting if I wasn’t getting so tired!! I’ve joked since high school that it always takes multiple things to actually take me down – ever since strep, tonsillitis, and mono sent me to the hospital. Anyway, that joke still rings true either because it actually is true, or because I’m too stubborn (or foolish) to rest properly with things. Anyway, moving on, there’s no time to dwell on that because there is a list!
You know I am serious when I make lists! I am not a natural list maker. So the fact that there are three, THREE lists currently going in my notebook, says a lot about the seriousness here!!
Today the oil was changed in my van. Brake pads were bought for a change tomorrow. I did some work things to help ease the load of work days before I leave next week.
Tomorrow morning I am going off by myself for awhile. I debated on that or church. I do love my church! And I send them my love! Tomorrow I am spending time just me and God. I need it. My soul is feeling so tired with so many big life things lately that are out of my control. I like when I can physically do something to help. And lots of things lately, the most I can do is pray. And it is so silly to write that because I know that above all that I can physically do, praying faithfully is still so far beyond what I am limited to!
Tonight I am thankful for the things that I can control with my lists. But I am even more thankful for the things out of my control that God can handle so much more better than I ever possibly could. And I am thankful for the reminder of just how much praying is actually “doing” something! More so than my lists could ever contribute!
Momma's Silver Lining 