I Am

When I was a teenager, there were a few years when I was sure I was never going to have children. I watched my mom give all of herself to her family. And I didn’t want to do that.

Then, I met the hubster. We fell in love. And my thoughts on children began to change. When we decided to have kids, I knew I would do whatever I had to do to make sure these kids were taken care of. I wanted to be here with them and not use daycare. So I changed jobs a few times to be able to stay with them. When we had to learn a better way to handle finances, I scoured the internet. So we could do better and provide better for the kiddos. When the kiddos needed special help, I studied and prayed and learned whatever I could to help them. I wanted (and still want) to be able to help them with whatever they need. Because I love them.

Today, in this new church that we’re attending, the pastor was talking about the different names of God. Because God is referenced as different names in the Bible. And one of the names, that I’ve heard before is “I am”. Why would God say that? Because he wants to be whatever we need . . because he loves us!

I have said before and I will say until I die, that being a parent has been such a blessing to understanding the heart of God. If I wanted so much to be able to take care of my kids and provide them with whatever they need, so much so that I changed everything in my life for them; how much more is God ready to do that for us!?!? That is exciting! And where I can fail my kiddos sometimes; God never does fail us. And he wants to be there for us and to provide what we need!

Now mind you, it is what we need, not always what we want! But, of course he wants to spoil us sometimes and bless us extra. Because he’s our heavenly father . . or a parent. I want to give my kiddos what they need . . not always what they want. One kiddo in particular would like to live on Cheetos and pop. But that wouldn’t be good for him, so I don’t provide him with that. But, I love him, and I spoil him with Cheetos and pop sometimes to bless him. Now, how much more can God do . . and how much more does he want to do. I doubt I can even fathom how much ❤

Tonight I am thankful again for this new church. I am thankful for being able to bless my kiddos and provide for them . . that wouldn’t be possible without God. And I am forever thankful that God loves us and wants to be whatever we need to take care of us and bless us ❤