I got too excited this evening. I had planned and prepared and tried to remind myself to calm down.
Then this evening came news that wasn’t quite what I expected. It wasn’t a “no”. But, more facts were brought to light that would make a “yes” quite difficult.
I had to pause.
I came home. I sat out on our patio. Turned on the gas fire (from Aldi’s!) and just did some breathing. My thoughts went a million miles per minute. Then nothing. Then more lots of thoughts, like an Amtrak thru my head. Then nothing. Man, I am tired.
I am prioritizing. I am going to explore possibilities. And I’ll come up with a plan F or G. Honestly I forget where I am with this by this point. And I’ll pray. I tend to jump ahead sometimes. I did with this a little. I was excited! Maybe this is still the right decision. Maybe not. I’m calmed down now. I’ll spend more time on this. But for tonight, I’ll just breathe.
Tonight I am thankful for pausing in life sometimes to regain some calm. It’ll all get figured out. And it doesn’t need to be figured out now . . although I want it figured out now! But, it doesn’t need to be. Pause, faith, trust.