I was purposely not writing on this subject for a while. I’ve noticed that my lack of dedication to my own health in the last couple years was cringe-worthy. I’ve also noticed that the more I’ve talked about doing something about it, the less I actually did. Almost like talking about it was enough. It wasn’t. Or I’d try hard for a few days, maybe even a week, and that was all. When life got tough, I reached for a bag of chips.
I’ve slowly been working on this. I did not weigh myself at the beginning of my more recent endeavors. I didn’t want to know what I weighed. I still don’t want to know. That would be de-motivating for me, to stare at a number of how little I had took care of myself.
In the past I would do some quick fixes, make the scale closer to what I wanted, and go back to my old ways. I have not done that this time. This time I have been trying to make small changes, a little at a time. I’ve known since my last several weight loss failures that this needed to be a lifestyle change. I even declared it would be . . then nothing. Yep, that talking part that makes me feel like I’ve done something, when I’ve done nothing . . . not cool.
So now I’m here. A few changes have been doing well for a couple of weeks. I’m going to add in a few more changes slowly. And I’m working on making these be an actual lifestyle change . . not a quick fix. We got our Girl Scout cookies yesterday (we’ll be delivering soon!). But, today I had some. I almost started to feel guilty about it. But I stopped myself. If this is going to be a lifestyle change than it will allow room for a handful of cookies during cookie season.
Tonight I am thankful for some successful lifestyle-changing weeks. I won’t be the epitome of health by spring break. But I will be a lot closer than I was in January! I don’t plan on getting down to 10% body fat. But I will be a lot healthier than I have been being!