I have spent a lot of time trying to find the “perfect” schedule. I have found a lot of peace once I admitted to myself that that isn’t actually an attainable goal for me.
I work better early in the morning. So I wanted to set my schedule up to get up every morning at 3 or 4 am, depending on my workload. I could get my reports done before I had to go out on appointments for the day. Sounds great and maximizes my natural work tendancies. The problem with that is that I am a mom. I don’t just shut the world down to be able to sleep early enough to wake up early without sleep deprivation.
My plan B was to stay up late then. The house is quieter when everyone is sleeping. So if I wasn’t going to do mornings, maybe I could do evenings. Well, that doesn’t always work either. Sometimes people have troubles sleeping. Sometimes I’m just exhausted at the end of the day!
I spent years fighting with this. How do I schedule myself for maximum productivity?? Some people start their day out with quite prayer or reflections. I can’t do that consistently. I’ve tried multiple times. I just fall back asleep. Some people get up and take a shower first thing. I can’t do that well either. When I am still waking up I take extra long showers and empty out the hot water heater!! Some people get up and exercise first things. I can’t do that every day either. I am too half-asleep still to get in a good work-out. You’d think I would fully wake up. But no, I can do a whole circuit in my basement and lay right back down to sleep!
Evening routines? Some people read in bed. That does not relax me. That gets my mind spinning faster with ideas and stories and I stay awake. Some nights I stay up well and knock out a bunch of work. Some nights I fall asleep while typing – did you know a person can sleep-type? I actually did it again last night while typing last night’s blog. I don’t remember dreaming; but when I snapped awake I had typed something about a phone call with a woman. That had nothing to do with my blog and I had to reread it three times to make sure it was coherent.
Tonight I am thankful for realizing some time ago that I should embrace the fact that I can have a rotating schedule. Some days I wake up early. Some days I stay up late. Some days I think of a day when my schedule will be more consistent; and I kind of know that even when that day comes, I still won’t be a consistent person . . it’s really not my natural flow anyway 🙂